My Mother's Death Put Me in a Courtroom and a Home That Isn't Mine

Seventeen-year-old Maeve survives the car crash that kills her mother, but the truth about that night haunts her. Sent to live with a father she doesn't quite know, a stepmother who tries too hard, and a baby brother she refuses to know... Maeve must decide: will she keep running from the past or finally face the truth and find where she belongs?

I don't remember the impact. Not really.

I remember the rain. Light at first, then heavier, drumming against the windshield. I remember the sound of my mother's laugh, my fingers tapping absently against the steering wheel as I told her about Nate, the boy who sat two seats ahead of me in chemistry.

I remember the way she glanced over, smirking.

He sounds like trouble, Maeve.

And I remember the headlights.

Too close. Too fast.

The next thing I remember is screaming for my mother.

I was outside the car. Somehow. I don't remember getting there. My knees were soaked in mud, my hands covered in blood that wasn't mine.

Mom was lying on the pavement, her body twisted wrong, her eyes half-open, staring at nothing.

I screamed her name until my throat burned. I tried to shake her awake, but she wouldn't move.

Then... sirens.

Hands pulling me away. A voice saying something about a drunk driver.

Another voice saying, "The mother was driving."

I gasped, tried to tell them that it was me... but the words wouldn't come. The world spun, my stomach twisted, and then...

Blackness.

I wake up in a hospital bed. A dull, aching fog fills my skull. There's a nurse. Machines beeping. The distant murmur of voices in the hallway.

My throat is dry. My limbs feel wrong. The door opens, and I expect to see my mom. For a horrible, fleeting second, I think maybe it was all just a dream.

But then my father steps in.

Thomas.

He looks older than I remember. The last time I saw him was... Christmas? Two years ago? I can't remember.

He sits beside the bed, hesitating before placing a rough, unfamiliar hand on mine.

"Hey, kid," he says.

And just like that, I know this isn't a dream.

She's really gone.

Two weeks later

I wake up in a house that doesn't feel like mine.

Julia is in the kitchen, humming. The smell of something earthy and vaguely sweet clings to the air. I stare at the bowl she sets in front of me.

Oatmeal, topped with flaxseeds and blueberries.

"I added some hemp hearts," she says, as if this is normal. "Hemp seeds are good for you, honey."

As if my mother isn't dead and I haven't been dropped into this house with its bland beige walls and a baby I barely know.

I pick up the spoon. Stare at it. Set it back down.

Julia watches, tucking a stray piece of hair behind her ear.

"Not hungry, love?"

I am hungry. Starving, even. But I don't want this. I want greasy diner waffles. I want to drive to Sam's Diner at midnight with my mom, splitting pancakes and laughing at the guy who always falls asleep in booth six.

Instead, I shake my head and push the bowl away.

Julia hesitates then she slides a protein ball across the table. It's some homemade concoction of dates and oats. Her olive branch, I guess? I don't take it.

"Maeve," she sighs. "Your dad will be back soon. He went to get diapers for—"

I stand up before she can finish. I don't want to hear more. I don't want to know more.

Court

I stand in front of the mirror, surrounded by a pile of discarded clothes. The first dress is too formal. The second makes me look like a kid. The third is too tight, too wrong, too not me.

What do you wear to watch the man who killed your mother sit on trial?

I grab a simple black blouse. It reminds me of the morning of her funeral. Like how I sat on my bed, surrounded by every black item I owned, trying them on, ripping them off.

Nothing felt right. Nothing could make me feel ready to bury her.

I remember standing in front of the mirror that morning, staring at my reflection with swollen, puffy eyes. My hands shook as I buttoned a satin blouse I'd never worn before. Mom would have told me that it didn't matter.

"They'd be too busy looking at that beautiful smile on your face," she'd say. "Or that gorgeous hair."

But I wasn't dressing for them. I was dressing for her.

Now, I do up the same buttons with fingers that tremble just as much.

I want justice. I want Calloway to pay. But in the back of my mind, guilt whispers: I didn't see him in time.

I squeeze my eyes shut. I try to breathe.

Then I grab my blazer, straighten my shoulders, and walk out of the door.

Justice first. Guilt later.

The courtroom is too cold, and the seat beneath me is stiff. The man sitting across from me, the one who killed my mother, stares down at his folded hands.

His suit is wrinkled. His jaw is unshaven. He doesn't look sorry.

Calloway.

He had been drunk. He had already lost his license once. He shouldn't have been behind the wheel.

I want him to look at me. I want him to see what he's done.

The lawyer calls my name. My throat tightens as I step forward. The room tilts slightly as I sit. My pulse hammers in my ears.

"Can you tell us what happened that night, Maeve?"

I should say I don't remember the impact. I should say that we were talking about stupid things... about boys and pizza and the rain, until the headlights came.

Instead, I swallow back the bile and inhale.

"We were on our way home. Then he hit us," I say.

I wait for the next question. But it doesn't come from my lawyer. It comes from his.

A woman with sharp eyes and an even sharper voice.

"Maeve, who was driving?"

I go still. There's a pause. Too long.

"Your mother, correct?" She tilts her head.

I don't say anything. I just nod. But something shifts inside me.

A memory.

The keys are in my hand. The feeling of the steering wheel under my fingers. The headlights.

Oh, my God. No. No, that's not right. Is it?

The memory was coming back. The brain fog was lifting... suddenly, the true events were coming back to me. Everything had been hazy since I left the hospital. I was focusing on the loss of my mother, rather than the accident...

I glance at my father. His forehead creases. He shifts forward slightly, confusion flickering across his face. I want to run. I want to vanish.

"I don't know..." comes out of my mouth instead, so quietly that I'm not sure anyone hears.

The Truth

That night, I'm sitting in my room, staring at the ceiling. The air is thick, suffocating. But the memory won't leave me.

I see it now. Clear as day.

Mom smiling as she handed me the keys.

"You dragged me out of the house to fetch you, Mae," she'd said. "So, you drive, kiddo. I'm tired."

The warmth of the leather beneath my hands. Laughing together. The rain, getting heavier...

And then, those headlights.

I was driving. It was me.

A cold, sick feeling twists inside me. I feel like I might throw up.

I find my father in the living room. He looks up from the couch, his eyes weary, a glass of something amber in his hand.

"I need to tell you something," I say.

He nods slowly. Waits.

"What's up, Maeve?"

I sit across from him. The words stick thickly against my throat.

"I was driving."

He says nothing. He doesn't even blink.

I swallow hard.

"She... she let me take the wheel. She was tired so because I asked her to fetch me, she gave me the keys... We were talking about... life, and then the rain started, and I didn't see him, Dad. I didn't see him until he was right there."

My voice breaks. My breath comes in short, sharp gasps. I can't breathe.

His glass clinks as he sets it down. I expect him to yell. To tell me it's my fault. Instead, he reaches for me.

And I break.

The sobs come fast, violent, shaking my whole body. I fold into him, the weight of it all crushing me. His arms tighten around me, and for the first time in years, I let him hold me.

"It wasn't your fault, Maeve." His voice is rough, thick with something I've never heard before. "It wasn't your fault."

I want to believe him. God, I really want to believe him.

"Go to sleep, Maeve," my father says. "Just sleep it off, and we'll talk about it tomorrow."

We hear Julia in the kitchen. Probably making another batch of those protein balls.

"Okay... Dad," I mutter and walk away.

I stop at the top of the stairs. Below, the kitchen light spills into the hallway, a soft yellow glow against the dark. I hear voices, low and tired.

My father and Julia.

I step closer. I shouldn't listen. I know I shouldn't. But then...

"She told me, Jules," he says. "She was driving."

I stop breathing. A cold, sharp feeling spreads through me like ice in my veins.

Silence.

Then the soft clink of a spoon against ceramic. Julia's kombucha, probably. She drinks it every night, swearing it does something for digestion. I don't know why I focus on that, except that it's easier than focusing on what my father just said.

"Mara gave her the keys," he continues. His voice is rough, like he hasn't slept. "Maeve had been out. Asked her mother to pick her up from a friend's house."

There's a long, heavy pause.

"If she hadn't asked... if Mara had just driven them home..."

He doesn't finish.

My fingers curl around the banister. My nails dig into the wood. I've had that thought a thousand times. If I hadn't called. If I hadn't needed a ride. If I hadn't gotten into that car...

Julia speaks carefully, as if she's gently choosing every word.

"You can't think like that, Thomas," she says.

"Can't I?" he counters.

There's a bitter chuckle and the sound of a chair scraping.

My father exhales, slow and heavy. Like something inside him is breaking.

"I look at her, and I... Look, I love her, I do. But she's... a stranger to me, Julia."

My breath catches. I've already lost one parent. But something about hearing my father speak like this... makes me feel like I'm about to lose another.

"Sharing a birthday every other year? A Christmas? That's not a father... That's a..." his voice falters. "I wasn't there for her."

The words hit me like a fist to the ribs. I press my forehead against the wall. My chest aches. My father loves me. I know he does.

But love doesn't erase distance. It doesn't make two people know each other. It doesn't fill the years of absence. And right now, I don't know if it ever will.

The Letter

I still have the weekend before going back to the courthouse to hear the final verdict. But after overhearing my father and Julia the night before, I don't know how to exist.

I'm in bed when I hear Julia in the hallway. She's carrying Duncan, who's been screaming for someone to pick him up.

"Momma's here, sweet boy," she coos. "Did you think I wasn't coming to get you? Momma will always get you..."

Her voice trails off as the baby coos loudly, followed by a series of Julia's kisses on his face.

I miss that. Knowing that my mother would be there for me at any moment. That she would be there to catch me every time I fell.

Now?

I have a father who loves me but struggles to see me.

I don't know how I'm going to spend the weekend, but I know that I'll be staying in my room. Maybe go through the trunk of my mother's belongings. She was always putting her important things into it.

"One day, when everything else is gone, Maeve," she'd say. "We'll only have little things that tie us to great memories. You'll find most of them here, in this trunk. For me, anyway."

I don't want to read the letter. I don't even want to hold it. But when I found it in the green velvet box, I couldn't put it back. There's just something about touching my mother's things that makes me feel... alive.

The paper is soft with age, the edges curled from time. My mother's handwriting tilts slightly to the right, looping and delicate. It's so familiar that it hurts.

I should put it back. But my hands tremble as I unfold it.

And I read.

Thomas,

I don't know why I'm writing this. Maybe because you'll never read it. Maybe because I'm tired. Or maybe because Maeve is asleep upstairs, and I just kissed her goodnight. And for the first time in a long time, I wondered if I made the right choice.

She's brilliant, Thomas. Stubborn and messy and so, so alive. And I wonder...

Are you finally ready? Could you be her father the way she needs you to be?

I don't know. I won't ask. But I do know this: she'll be sixteen soon. And she still has time. So much time. And maybe, if you try, she'll let you in.

Mara

My breath catches. Mom wrote it almost over a year ago. The ink is smudged in places like she hesitated to put down exactly what she felt... like she almost stopped herself from writing it at all.

She thought about this. She wondered.

I press my hand over my mouth, squeezing my eyes shut.

She was supposed to know everything. She was supposed to be right about everything. But she wasn't. She had doubts.

And if she had doubts, then maybe I can, too. Maybe my father was ready to be there for me...

I exhale, staring at the trunk in front of me. Her things. The pieces of her life.

I let my gaze drift around the room. This room that doesn't feel like mine. The walls are blank. The shelves are empty. It's like I've been waiting for an escape hatch to appear, waiting for the moment to decide that I don't belong here and mean it.

But what if I stopped waiting? What if I stayed?

I think about Duncan's tiny fingers wrapped around mine. I haven't allowed myself to be with him yet, but I'd love to. I think about Julia standing in the kitchen with her healthy food and strange optimism. I think about my father, sitting on the porch night after night, carrying his own ghosts.

Maybe there's still time...

The Verdict

Calloway takes a plea deal. Less prison time, but a full admission of guilt. It doesn't feel like justice. It doesn't feel like anything.

"I'm so sorry, Mom. I love you. I miss you."

And for the first time since the crash, I feel like she hears me.

Healing, Slowly

Julia doesn't say anything about the trial. But the next morning, there's a plate of waffles on the table. Real ones. With syrup. And butter.

I stare at them. Then at her.

She shrugs, sipping her green tea.

"I caved," she says. "Don't tell the other vegans."

Something unexpected tugs at the corner of my mouth. A smile. Small, but real. Julia sees it. She doesn't say anything. She just smiles back.

I pick up my fork. Maybe, just maybe, this house could start to feel like home.

"You need to do something," Julia says, as if reading my mind. "Do something that's going to make this house feel like home. Plant your mom's favorite flowers so that you can see them and think of her."

"Okay," I say quietly. "I like that idea."

But before I do anything else, I have to speak to my father. We need to clear the air if I'm going to... heal.

I find my father outside, sitting on the porch steps.

The air is cool, carrying the faint scent of Julia's weird lavender candles. She lights them everyday, swearing they calm the energy of the house. I used to roll my eyes, but now?

A few weeks of being here and I don't mind it so much.

I sit beside him. He glances over, surprised.

"Did I disappoint you, Dad?"

"What? Maeve! Never! I was just... shocked when you told me the truth. You had hidden it from everyone."

"I didn't hide it, Dad," I say. "Not at first. I genuinely didn't remember what happened. We were in the car, there were headlights, and then the next thing I remember was being on the ground with Mom. But the memories have been coming back... It was a mistake."

He sighs deeply.

"I know, baby," he says. "I think I just wasn't prepared to be a father to you. Of course, I'm your dad. But I've been your father from the sidelines, never up close. And now, this? It caught me off guard. And I didn't know how to help you with the loss."

"I'm helping myself," I say weakly.

"I know," he sighs. "But that's my job, Maeve. Mom would want me to help you. But I've been doing a pretty lousy job of it."

I stare ahead, my fingers twisting in my lap. The words feel heavy, like stones in my chest. But I say them anyway.

"I want to start over," I say.

I expect hesitation, skepticism. Instead, something in my father's face softens.

"I've been awful," I admit. The words sting on the way out, but I don't take them back. "To you. To Julia... But especially to Duncan. I haven't picked him up once. I haven't played with him. He's a baby, he doesn't deserve that."

My throat tightens.

"He deserves better. I'll be better."

"You don't have to be perfect, Maeve," my father says. "Just be here."

I blink fast, nodding before the tears can spill.

"I want to paint a mural in his room," I say. I don't know where the idea came from, but it feels right. "Something fun. Dinosaurs, maybe. And I'm going to learn how to make vegan curry with Julia. I mean, I'll hate it, but still."

My dad shakes his head, chuckling. And then, hesitantly, he pulls me into his arms. And this time, I let him. For the first time in a long time, I let myself believe.

Maybe, just maybe... this life won't be so bad after all.

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